Pre Hike 26 March 2018

I stumble through my day with my thoughts drifting toward the hike and being away from my life in New York City.  I go through the motions at the gallery trying to remain engaged and needed but realizing that my tenure is really over and I no longer need to worry about two weeks from now and the new problems that are already beginning to form.     I go to the gym and find I am exhausted from the routine of daily workouts.   I think about all of the gear I have ready to go and the items that I still need to research and purchase.   But through it all, I am extremely grateful.  I am grateful that I have this opportunity at this point in my life.  I am grateful for my friends who continue to inspire me.  We've shared final dinners together, said our goodbyes.   There are no tears or regrets.  My family has been a beacon of light encouraging me and providing much needed support.   In fact everyone I have shared my news with has been jubilantly positive.  I have not received one instance of "you can't do this!!" from anyone.   Instead I am noticing that many people are expressing their own desires to step out of the grinding day to day and experience something beyond imagination.   I will never take for granted the opportunity to hike the Pacific Crest Trail.   It is my choice.  And I am grateful for everything that has allowed me to take 5 months off and pursue a dream.